This happens to me more often than I’d like: I tell myself I’m going to do something, and then I don’t do it.
- “I’ll only watch one more episode” and then binge watch an entire season.
- “I’m not going to stay up late tonight” and then finally make it to bed at 2am.
- “I’m going work on a course assignment today” and then spend all day with the assignment tab open while distracted browsing other things.
Each time this happens, I’m training my brain to not believe me. It gets used to not taking my words seriously. Every time I break my word, I’m not respecting my words. I lose confidence in myself.
When I have low self-confidence, fears become self-fulfilling. I’m scared I won’t finish a project. I don’t trust myself to do it. And that’s what ends up happening. It has become a habit.
The only way to rebuild trust in myself is to do what I say I’ll do. It will take time.